Picture: Divine Mother’s love of color and variety
Like many anniversaries in life, a birthday gives time for reflection. Like an eagle flying high above sees a person down below and can look far back, know where the person is now, and can gaze forward to see what is to come.
I have had the privilege of God showing me many of my past incarnations. Like a lightswitch thrown and a room lit up, a revelation can be given in which the gist of a whole lifetime can be given in an instant, or perhaps just a significant moment is seen. When it is God who is showing you, whatever is shown will relate to something you are going through in that moment, and it is given to you to help release you from the past.
So I can look back to many experiences that have all gone into making me who I am today. And not all of them are good, or perfect, but then some of them show signs of compassion and clarity. In what I have been given there has been more suffering than overcoming; that is because it is those things I have done wrong or have traumatized me that have held me back. In order to be released from these things that follow me from lifetime to lifetime I must absorb the lesson intended, not always the one I learned at the time.
Perhaps the greatest revelation that has come from these experiences is that the law of cause and effect, the boom-a-rang of Karma, is not meant as punishment, but rather it occurs to teach compassion. If I do something despicable to another without real consideration for how that action affects them, then those same actions will be visited upon me. When they come to me I understand what suffering is produced by that action. When this happens enough, I will see myself in the happiness or suffering of all others, for no one is a stranger to me. There is nothing another does that I have not done, in some version, and there is no pain another may have that has not been mine at some time. My vision becomes universalized. This is the lesson of compassion my past has taught me.
In the present I am just reading the newly published Cross and Lotus Journal, after having gone over it many times when proofing it. In reading Mother’s Easter Talk I find myself carried into her living presence; her words, thoughts, and spiritual experiences are not just reacting in my brain, but through my whole Being. She is telling my story. At the time she gave the talk she was showing me the way. Now, as I read her words she is telling the way that I have come. When Mother ordained me a Yogacharya she said that I had been through nearly all the experiences she had been through–I was quite surprised when she said that.
What was very important in her statement was–“nearly.” And, in fact there were many experiences yet to go through, some of them unimaginable to me at the time. I think for the most part it is best for us to not know everything we will have to go through before hand! However, through those experiences I am now able to enjoy a communion with God that does, as Sri Yukteswarji said it would, fulfill my heart’s desire. I melt in gratitude to God and Guru for making this possible. I know in every cell of my being that God-experience is the source of every happiness, and it is separation from Him that makes suffering. My soul melts and merges with Him, then He re-animates me to serve Him in all forms, and it is all His play. This–I know.
Looking forward I only know that there is much work to do. I know with every fiber of my being that Mother’s words, the truth that came at such a high price, must go out in order to help this world to change. She speaks to all the Christian world, telling them of the original teachings and meaning of Jesus. She also bridges the the teachings of Jesus to reach out to every man, woman and child the world over, those belonging to every religion–for she tells a story with universal significance. This world stands on the verge of becoming more universal, we see signs of it everywhere; yet the oppositional force does not go quietly. Dedicated souls must first tread the way themselves, and then be willing to share the Light now shining through their forms.
I see a world that tempers individuality, competition, and striving with compassion, internally derived joy, and universal vision. God proves through nature He loves individual expression, as Divine Mother manifests through so many different kinds of flowers, so much beauty, so many colors and outrageous patterns. So She must love Her individuality in humanity. When we realize that every individual is part of one complete puzzle, and for the picture to be complete no piece of the puzzle can be discarded or treated with disrespect, then we will have taken a giant step forward to universalizing our vision.
So, as the eagle swoops earthward, and on this day that I ostensibly celebrate my birth, the birth of a body that is simply one of many this soul has inhabited, I wish that all your heart’s desires be fulfilled. And, I do happen to know a secret–realizing God will satisfy your heart, completely.