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P1020567.reduced…Paramhansaji felt a great joy and contentment in writing. At the desert he devoted most of his time to bringing forth from his own divine ocean of perception rare pearls of wisdom that would inspire all seekers of God. Hours slipped by like minutes. Many many times it was daylight before he would think of stopping, “I dictate scriptural interpretations  and letters all day,” he wrote to a student, “with eyes closed to the world, but open always in heaven.” He had to be constantly reminded of the time; otherwise he would completely forget the body and its needs.

Only a night or two before he left the desert for the last time he was coaxed to stop working, and was about to go for his nightly walk, when he suddenly said, “Get out the typewriter. I am going to dictate something.” The disciples demurred, urging him to rest, but he was adamant. Several hours’ dictation followed, and the sky was beginning to lighten before he ended. Those who had been listening were spellbound by the beauty and depth of the scriptural explanation he had given, but expressed their concern that it had kept him so long. He replied very firmly, “If I hadn’t done it tonight, it would never have been done.”

It was Master’s practice to dictate the text of his new books to disciples who would record his words on a typewriter. Later he would read over the typewritten sheets and make corrections, additions, and so on. His literary works were all creative and inspirational. Unlike those of most scriptural interpreters, Yoganandaji’s books were never a scholarly rearrangement of other men’s opinions. His words sprang spontaneously from the depths of Self-realization. In his commentaries on the Bible, Bhagavad Gita and other sacred texts, Paramhansaji would start his dictation only after receiving the sanction of the Great Ones, whom he beheld with interior vision. Often he would say to disciples: “Christ (or Krishna, or Sri Yukteswarji) is here in this room, smiling a blessing.”

Because Master could converse with rare insight on any subject, many people thought he obtained his knowledge from books.

“You must be extremely well read,” a visitor observed one day. “No,” Yoganandaji replied, “I doubt that I have read twenty books in the past twenty years.”

…During the last weeks at the desert Master spoke with increasing emphasis about the unreality of illusory substance of the world. “See the mountain over there,” he would say. “God has made us think that it is tons upon tons of dirt, standing there solidly. But it is nothing more than an appearance, His dream. This mud-ball of earth whirling through space is held together only by the idea of it in the Creator’s mind.”

One night as he took his usual walk in the intense desert stillness, he looked off into the darkness and prayed to the Divine Mother to release him from his body. “My time is drawing near,” he said later. “God has better things in store for us.”

Master’s Mahasamdhi

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Below are excerpts from The Self Realization Magazine, dated May-June 1952 from Mother Hamilton’s library. We mark the anniversary of Master’s leaving the body and celebrate his life today. When you attune your mind to his life, teachings and spirit you feel uplifted, closer to God. I have combined a few articles to give you a feeling for what was written at the time by close disciples.  I will be posting these in a series, describing Master, his teachings and the last day of this incarnation of our blessed Param-Guru.

The Mahasamadhi of a World Teacher

On March 7th Pramhansa Yogananda

Left the Body for Omnipresence

By Sister Lauru

Of the Monastic Self-Realization Order

On March 7th the incarnation of Paramhansa Yogananda came to a perfect close. A life without blemish ended in mahasamadhi (a yogi’s final conscious exit from the body). Death took place a few minutes after Paramhansaji had uttered the final words in a speech at the Biltmore Hotel in Los Angeles. Unstintingly he gave of himself to the very end, to the last breath of his life.

Born a Kshatriya (a member kings and warriors), Yoganandaji died as he had lived; a divine warrior against the chief foe of man—ignorance. He had often said: “I do not want to die in bed, but with my boots on, speaking of God and India.” The Lord fulfilled with exactitude this wish of His devotee.

Paramhansaji’s last days were literally and symbolically bound up with the visit to Los Angeles of the Ambassador from India, Mr. Binay Ranjan Sen. The great guru could not go to India, so India—in the person of her highest foreign representative—came to the guru.

The last photograph of Yoganandaji, taken a few minutes before his death, shows the Ambassador’s wife pronaming to him as he stood to go to the speaker’s stand. By that last beautiful gesture an Indian woman symbolized the respect of her nation for the man who, more than any other son of India, made the perennial wisdom of the rishis known and loved in the West.

Miracle After Death

An article, “The Miracle at Forest Lawn,” appears in this issue, accompanied by a letter from the Mortuary Director of one of America’s largest and most beautiful cemeteries. The Mortuary Director testifies to the truth that Yoganandaji’s body remained “in a phenomenal state of immutability.” For weeks after his passing his unchanged face shone with the divine luster of incorruptibility. This miracle appears to have come to light through the grace of the Heavenly Father, that men might know the goodness of Yoganandaji’s mission on earth. The beautiful phenomena attending Paramhansaji’s death have already aroused profound interest in the soul-revealing possibilities of yoga.

Yoganandaji came to America to fulfill a specific mission, that of spreading in the West a knowledge of yoga techniques by which man can enter into conscious communion with his Creator. Paramhansaji was the last in a line of four gurus[i] who were divinely inspired—directly commanded by God—to teach openly to the modern world the secret yogic science of self-realization that was the glory of ancient India.

Kriya Yoga, the scientific technique of God-realization, will ultimately spread in all lands, and aid in harmonizing the nations through man’s personal, transcendental perception of the Infinite Father.” With these words Mahavatar Babaji sent Yoganandaji, in 1920, to the West.

The young monk, trained for his high duty for ten years at the Indian hermitage of his guru, Sri Yukteswarji, labored lovingly for more than thirty years in the New World, honoring the trust of the great humanitarian masters behind him. To them and to God, Master gave all the credit for the successful execution of his mission.

“After my passing,” Paramhansaji said, “The SRF teachings will be the guru.” In this way and in many other ways he indicated that the practical interest in yoga he had initiated in the West would continue to grow after his death. Like all other men of God, Master did not emphasize the importance of his own personality but rather the importance to each human being of his own struggle to achieve the life beautiful.

“Divine Union is possible through self-effort, and is not dependent on theological beliefs nor on the arbitrary will of a Cosmic Dictator. Through use of the Kriya Yoga key, persons who cannot bring themselves to believe in the divinity of any man will behold at last the full divinity of their selves.”

During the last three years Paramhansaji withdrew more and more from public life in order to complete a tremendous task of interpreting various scriptures. Shortly before his death he had finished all the writings he had planned. He said to a disciple: “My life work is done.”

Great devotees of God, the Hindu scriptures tell us, are given forewarning of their departure from this earth. A true yogi, unlike the unenlightened man, is never rudely surprised by Death. Yoganandaji had been aware of the general plan of his life ever since his youthful years with his omniscient guru, Sri Yukteswar. Master well knew his life would not be a long one. “I shall not live to be old,” he told a disciple in 1924…


[[i]This notion that Master was the last Guru in this lineage is something that has been repeated , but I have never seen a reference to where Master wrote or said that he would be the last Guru.]

 

The Best Gift Ever

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Picture by Gargi (Lakshmi) An old blind woman gives all of her fruits to the child Krishna, afterwards she finds her empty basket mysteriously full of valuable jewels.

For my birthday Jill and Carla conspired to actualize an idea I had once voiced. The idea is to do some service for others in the name of someone, then to write a story about this anonymous service done in that person’s name and give the story as a gift. Well for my birthday I received many, many such stories, and I have to tell you it contributed to my 60th as the best birthday I have ever celebrated. Below are some of the examples of the written stories, others were related directly through storytelling, all were touching and heartfelt and I feel so blessed to receive such wonderful gifts of love and light. May these stories spur us on to live a life of loving service to God in all forms, those closest to us as well as the one who comes as a stranger. I think you will find these “gifts” interesting in their varied and creative natures.

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Thanks for the reminder. I want to make a contribution but feel a little funny writing down my good deeds–kind of like trying to get credit for something I should just do quietly!
But if it makes David happy I am all for it.

  •  I picked up trash along a favorite forest trail so other folks wouldn’t have to look at it–thinking of David, God and Mother.
  • I paid $1200 for ______’s dental surgery because she had no way to pay for it herself–three extractions. She’ll pay me back when she can but seeing her out of pain is a pretty nice payment all by itself.
  • I loaned _______ enough money to get home as his debit card suddenly had no balance after a canceled hotel stay. He was very grateful and it felt good to help out.
  • I gave a couple at a rest stop along I-5 $20 dollars to help them out–they had a little sign and the man was playing a nice melody on the flute–Amazing Grace. And his flute was nothing more than some PVC pipe he had cut some holes in–the picture of simplicity.  He was older and had one of those craggy, lined faces that look so worn–but it lit up into a beautiful smile when we interacted—so that it wasn’t too hard to imagine him as Ram Himself in disguise!

All these little deeds can’t help but bring up feelings of God, the Masters and of course David–because he does so many wonderful things for us. It’s nice to do good for others with that same spirit of service and gratitude. It seems that even though we are trying to help others we are the great beneficiaries–it’s strange but doing good brings great feelings of gratitude for the one giving, so even though we may not be doing an act with the expectation of reward, we get one anyway! Hah! Isn’t God delightful!

  • One thing I did for others during a cold time, was gathering up about 10 coats, long underwear, jogging pants and tops and socks and delivered them to the Caring Place. These items will be distributed to the homeless.
  • I still want to deliver some blankets to the outreach society.
  • Brought my wedding dress over to show a young girl- she put on her princess dress and we had a party.
  • Bought muffins for staff meeting and let them know if was in honor of David.
  • Supported ________ while he dealt with a cancer scare.
  • Helped an elderly man put his groceries into his car.
  • Gave gifts of confidence to other women.
  • I’m finding it hard to identify “random acts of kindness” and realize that we devotees live our lives at all times in some degree of service, and, are frequently seeking feedback within ourselves as to the balance and harmony in these daily acts. As this is your birthday celebration, and since Carla sent the request, I’ve been focusing my “random acts” and sending them toward your beautiful, loving Self.
  • In honour of your 60 years, donated $60.00 to a food bank.
  • This is perfect timing.  I quite often ask God to work through me, to help people…but on this one particular morning I asked with much more urgency. Within a few minutes of starting work a co-worker was trying to arrange a ride home that day for ______; she usually has her husband pick her up daily, but the two of them have had many health challenges for several months. ______ is very soft spoken and shy to ask for help. I jumped at the opportunity to drive her home that afternoon and I expressed to her that any time she needs a ride home, or to be picked up for work, to please let me know.  She was very grateful; even better than that God came through – again!  This random act of kindness, was a beautiful answer to my prayer, that again shows me God is always so very near & dear. I feel wonderful being of service to God in this small way, I will continue look forward to letting God use me in any way He wants. Om Sri Ram Jai Jai Ram OM!!!
  • I have been thinking of this for a few days now and have just listened to a talk on how to be happy in the work place.  We have had two feet of snow this past month and are giving the Antarctic a run for the coldest, windiest place on earth and my act of kindness is to not curse the weather but to thank God for the stamina to withstand, not to curse the cat, and to feed the stray cats that come to our home to weather the storm.  I used to think God had a mean sense of humor sending me out to the mid-west but now I thank Him.
  • I focused on Valentine’s Day, channeling God’s love into special messages and gifts for the random and not so random of His children. I felt His great delight in sneaking Valentine cards, chocolates and flowers into mailboxes, doorsteps and on desks. How much He loves His children! All as the work of His loving heart.
  • We handed out beautiful red, pink and white carnations to “strangers” on the street—I was filled with God’s Joy in doing this, I could clearly see all these different faces and reactions as God Himself playing merrily in His love lila. One of the most memorable faces of God was on my sister—such joy and love was flowing out of her without restriction. I cannot remember seeing her so happy. 
  • It was a good experience, a contradiction to my pattern of self-involvement. So I did a few little acts, some of which seemed to take more effort than others. Mostly what I did was to contact people who I know are struggling in some way. First I had a few phone visits; _____ who’s been challenged with unemployment for a while now. Then I had a few phone visits with ____ who sounds to be wearing down quite badly. He still has a good chatting spirit though and we’ve plans to get together soon. I also called an old friend who’s not doing so well either but is always so pleased to hear from me so that wasn’t difficult. I invited her to a neighbourhood party. I also sent cards with a beautiful John O’Donahue poem inserted to an old friend who lost her husband a few months ago. Last night I wrote a kind of love letter to my sweet friend ____, whose mother recently passed away. I plan to keep this practise going because it soothes my soul as well as anything I offer.

  • In honor of your Birthday I have Sponsored ________ for one year at the Anandamayi Ma school. This is a kind act that I had intended to do earlier in the year and it had fallen between the cracks. I hope you had a beautiful day!

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I have often thought what this world would look like if everyone practiced the “golden rule,” to treat others as you would like to be treated. The great “secret” in giving in this way is that the giver feels such great joy in the giving it is difficult to know who receives more, the giver or the receiver.

Crown of Thorns

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Jesus with sacred heart-flame-crown of thorns and radiant nimbus

When Mother Hamilton gave me the honored title of Yogacharya she announced that I had been through nearly everything she had gone through in the way of spiritual experiences. Although I do not put myself anywhere near the same category as Mother, not anywhere near, never-the-less I felt honored in her acknowledging the many years of my being in the Mystical Crucifixion.

            I did not know at the time there were many more experiences that I was yet to go through, thankfully. I say thankfully for if I knew the extent of those yet-to-be experiences I may have stopped in my tracks right where I was. I can say now it was worth everything God and Guru put me through, but it is still better I did not know it all then.

One of the great experiences I have been put through, and continue to go through to this day, is the crown of thorns. When the Kundalini first rose up I felt an unparalleled heat in my ajna, the point between my eyebrows, later it became a tingling, sometimes burning force at the crown of the head, behind my eyes, and at times through my whole body system. There were other times when this Kundalini force felt like a very heavy hat sitting on my head.

It became evident to me that in the higher ages, or yugas, a king would have made this journey of the serpent force from the base of the spine to the top of the head. In later, darker ages this self-mastery was degraded to only a symbol of a golden crown and scepter given to the king. In higher ages these symbols would have been given when the leader had attained stability in higher consciousness; the scepter representing the awakened spine and the crown the awakened God-consciousness in the highest spiritual center.

Each day I have a reminder of the crown of thorns as my head is aflame with this burning force. And each day I hear the mighty sound of Aumen entering through the back of my head and my spine is filled with a flowing spiritual force, the top of the head is expanded, open and pointed like a spire to the heavens. There is no guess work for me to trace the movement of this Divine Force as goes about its work within.

I write about this to you now, prompted by that same spiritual force. It is not an easy life as it goes on all the hours of the day and is very exacting in all its ways; demanding nothing less than total surrender. But I would not change it for anything, for it is as God has designed it and I am thankful to be anywhere where He is, serving God and Gurus.

The crown of thorns is really the crown of life, and when God chooses to take you through this experience it will change you, for you will never to be the same. You may be assured that it need not last for as many years as it has for me, but it will continue until its task is done, and in the end you will be illumined!

Need Not Fear The Second Death

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Picture: Shushil Gupta & Mother, the saint Mother raised from the dead 10 years earlier

Inner House Is Divided between Ego and God

A house divided against itself cannot stand. If an earthquake was to take place and all of a sudden this tremendous quake would just sever a house in half, that house would fall. It could not possibly stand. And so it is with all of the things of life. It is so with the human family, with the man and his wife. You must be a united family if you are to stand on the rock of God, of Truth. It is so in your business. You cannot have a business divided against itself and have a successful business. It is so with a nation. It is so with the world. And that’s why we are having so much dissension, because we are a world divided against ourselves.

Body Is the Temple Housing Little Self and God. Now, this is a great truth. What Christ meant when he said this, “a house divided against itself cannot stand,” means exactly this. This is the temple of the living God. This is where we find Him—not outside of ourselves, but right in here. This is our house. And yet we are a house divided against ourselves because we have the little ego and the God Self. We are two selves, not one. And so therefore we must fall.

Sin Is What Maintains Separation of Self from God. And that is the meaning of the passage in the Bible where it says, “The wages of sin is death.”  Because sin is all of that which keeps us separated from God. It is that which takes us away from our true Self. And so because of the fact that we are separated, then we must go through what we know humanly as death.

But when we have come to the point where we have blended this little self with the God Self within us where we can say truly, “I and my Father are One,” then we have control over that last enemy, which is death.

Oneness Gives Control Even Over Death. We learn through the control of breath as taught by the masters of the East, to have complete control over our body, to go and come at will, even as Christ did. He was constantly going up into the mountain of his own being. And so it is said that “breathlessness is deathlessness,” and this is so. When you can learn to do without breath and yet remain in full consciousness, when you can learn to come and go from your body at will, then you have taken death into your arms.

And then when it is time for you to throw this garment off and put on a new one, you sit in the lotus posture and you go into what is called mahasamadhi, or the final state of leaving the body voluntarily. You are not choked out of the body. You do not go by accident. Your breath is not taken from you. But you go of your own volition in complete peace and comfort.

“He who has conquered the first death,” the Bible says, “need not fear the second death.”  It cannot harm you.

Mother’s Mahasamadhi Day

Mother - From picture with Sri AnnamalaiToday we mark Mother’s Mahasamadhi Day, the day she chose to consciously exit her human form. As she had already become one with God through her long and difficult Mystical Crucifixion there is no meaning that she only merged with God when she left the body; that she had done long ago. However, when she left the body it meant we had to now seek her out through our own spiritual vision, there was no physical address for us to find her. For those of us who knew this great Soul while in the body, her death was a great loss; for those who never met her in the body, her death was a great loss.

However, she left footprints that you might follow that take you to where she truly dwells, in God-consciousness. When you follow those footsteps you are led aright, and you will know in that day of oneness that what Mother taught is the absolute truth, and that truth sets you free. Mother describes those footsteps in her talks, and here is a beautiful talk from 1961 in which the great master tells of her enormous desire to know God, and her heartbreaking compassion for this world and those who suffer in it. In the end, she assures us, none will be denied because of past errors.

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Death of Ego (Crucifixion).  Someone asked once, “What does it mean when it says to go to God the Absolute?”  Well, the Absolute God was, is, and always will be.  And He has contained within Himself everything that has ever been manifested in this world.  And as you climb the spinal stairway of Self‑Realization, going up each step at a time, you come to the point where you want freedom from the ego, where you want the death of the ego to take place.

And as it says in the Bible, the day will come when he who thinks he will kill you will do God a service.  And it speaks of the ego within yourself, because you think of yourself always as separated from God.  And this separation, this constant cry in your heart, is what makes you unhappy.  This is what keeps you bound.  And so the day comes when you say, “God, please take me.  Reveal Thyself to me.  Reveal Thyself to me.  Make me see You within me.  Make me know that truly God and the kingdom of heaven are within, and that there is none else in this world but Thee, none else.”

And if you will persevere, if you will go through this thing called death, this crucifixion on your own cross, then truly you will have eternal light and you will be lifted up into the arms of your Father.  And as you are lifted up, you go beyond all duality.

It is like a top that is spinning at such a high velocity of speed that it seems as though it isn’t moving, and yet it is moving.  It is moving more rapidly than anything you can possibly imagine.  It seems as though it is still, and yet it has all movement within itself.  Thus it is to experience God the Absolute.  It is as though there is nothing but you and God in the beginning, and then all of the sudden you realize “I am He; blessed Spirit, I am He.”  And your being is filled with bliss, with ecstasy, with rapture, and you are intoxicated as you never dreamed of intoxication.  Your whole being has become one of light.  And truly all the streets within your kingdom are paved with gold, and the river runs with the nectar of God.  And you drink forever of this bliss.

Return to Worldly Consciousness and Service.  But you know that you can’t stay there, that you have to come down into this worldly consciousness again and serve God because only through serving can you fulfill your destiny.  Many scoff at work, and yet He who refuses the work refuses to take part in this wonderful world of God, this wonderful activity that is going forever and forever closer to Him.

It is difficult to understand this in this day because we hear so much of dissension.  We see it all now.  We see cruelty done, and yet we must have understanding even of that.  And when you have once gone through your crucifixion, when you have risen from the tomb within yourself, when you who died in sin have finally one day risen with the Christ, then you feel the spark of life again within you.  And as you look around you, you see that all of these people have done nothing more than you have done at some time or other in this life, or in some life, and your heart bleeds for them.  And you want to cry because you are one with all humanity.  You cannot see any difference, and you know that to the last breath of your life, you will use that breath, you will use your energy, your intelligence, to serve God and to try to take all of his children back to Him.  None will be denied.

Mother Experienced Consciousness of Self as an Atom

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Picture: Seeing the purity of God, as Krishna, in all beings, the person, cow, elephant and dog; equally alike.

This week we mark the anniversary of Mother Hamilton’s Mahasamadhi, a great yogi’s conscious exit from the body; this occurred on January 31st, 1991. To celebrate Mother’s life I will include some quotes from Mother that speak of her life. In the talk Mother gave below, she is having a lively conversation with Emily; the date is not recorded, probably in the early 1960s.

It appears Emily is challenging the notion that consciousness began with God, and is speculating that consciousness has evolved only through creation and ultimately became soul-conscious when it attained human birth. Mother settles the question by telling of her own experience in which she experienced the perfection of God when she was but a single atom.

It reminds me of a conversation Larry Koler told me about when an atheist was arguing his case and the other man said, “So, you say you cannot believe in God, but you believe that a rock can become Beethoven!”

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Emily:  Does man not develop from the ultimate atom?  Does he not, is he not present‑‑ I don’t know how to say it‑‑ but is he not present in the beginning of the earth?  We will use earth because we happen to be here. But was he not present in that ultimate atom?

Mother:  Yes.

Emily:  Well, how then could you say that he had ever enjoyed the bliss of the Infinite?

Mother:  Because he came from the Infinite, he was one with that Infinite. And as he came from it he was perfect in creation.

Emily:  Well, he would have to go through when this earth was nothing but a boiling mass. Undoubtedly, all that would ever be was in that mass. Would you agree with that?

Mother:  Well, God can create new masses, can’t he?

Emily:  Well, He created a mass, not only a mass but a mess here. [laughter]

Mother:  But He didn’t initiate the mess. We created the mess.

Emily:  Well, if there’s nothing outside the mass‑‑

Mother:  Yes, that’s right. But in the state of duality, it is a mess.

Emily:  It is His play.

Mother:  It is His play. That’s absolutely correct.

Emily:  In the ultimate atom, in the swirling mass or vortex, just like our material scientists today tell us that they see this‑‑ they even call it cosmic dust, which is the vortex of another universe coming into being‑‑ man must undoubtedly be in that swirling vortex.

Mother:  Yes, that’s right.

Emily:  Well then, he becomes the rock.

Mother:  Yes. He becomes all things in gradual evolution.

Emily:  So then in eons of time, in these hundreds of millions of years that this earth has been turning, we have been evolving. And you would almost say, wouldn’t you, that somewhere man becomes an individual soul, so the idea of soul kicks in?

Mother:  Yes, that’s right. He has human consciousness.

Emily:  He has the ability to think.

Mother:  To clarify this for you, an experience which was given to me once, Emily, was that I was taken back to the time when I was an atom. My individual consciousness of self was in that atom. I knew that I was in that atom, and it was as though I was lying on the grass. The dew was all around me. I was conscious of being an atom in space, that I actually had consciousness, and yet I had no form other than that infinitesimal cloak of the atom (I had this experience within myself), and yet I knew that “I” existed, that I was perfect within myself, that I was a part of the whole.

Emily:  The “I AM”.

Mother:  Yes. The “I AM” was there.

Passings

draft_lens7809531module65757291photo_1257871530Jesus-in-Garden-of-GethsemaneThe recent passing of my mother, Christine, Prem and others close to us has made grief not only something that is common to all of us, but it is also current and personal to me.

My observations about my own experiences with grief as well as what I have seen in others has shown me there are ways that grief can bind us and place us in an unendurable hell, or pass through us in a way that makes us grow as we receive comfort from a higher Source.

Jesus said, “Blessed are they that mourn: for they shall be comforted.” Now it does not appear that all those who mourn have comfort, yet that is what Matthew reported the Master saying. I say this; all those who turn to God for comfort in their mourning do receive the Comforter of the Holy Spirit. Those who turn away from God either from hurt, anger or fear remain without comfort because those ones have closed the door to Grace.

This feeling of connection with God, grace, comfort and inner assurance is what makes all the difference. When you feel connection with God you may shed tears, feel sadness, even the twist of pain in the heart in grief and yet your soul is not overcome with it. Along with pain will come comfort, peace, and even joy.

There are ways to proceed through grief that do not bind you to the ignorance of separation from God:

  • When you open your heart to the great Comforter you will have a balm to heal the wound of grief.
  • When you stand as an observer on the banks of the river and see/feel your grief flowing through your own heart, flowing out in front of you and letting it go, then you may experience the pain and loss that is mighty, but it is endurable and you will have peace.
  • When you let go of anger, disappointment and pain about a loss, and you do not let it separate you from your Creator, then, with time, the very same thoughts of loss that created pain in the beginning will transform into feelings of love and gratitude.

You will in all likelihood have some reaction to the death of a loved one, although it is not absolutely necessary. For instance, you may through your connection with God feel direct awareness of the individual soul as that one moves into his or her new life and there is no loss of connection either with the person or with God, and thus no sense of loss, no sorrow.

When that is the case you know there is no reason to grieve for that soul, for that one is now free of his physical frame that is known to be like a heavy lead overcoat in comparison to the lightness of being in spirit. When in the body one is normally limited to the five senses, now in spirit he is free and awareness is immeasurably greater; more closely attuned to divine emanations. You may experience pure joy for that soul that soars beyond this physical world, even as you might for a bird that has been long caged and is now able to fly free.

However, there may be other cases that even though you know about the current freedom of a soul, you may still feel the loss; even as you might feel loss for someone close to you who moves a great distance away. There is memory stored in the mind and body that expects that one to walk into the room, give you a call, or celebrate a holiday; with each body memory you may feel some pang of loss in the realization that one will not be walking through the door. The great Comforter will heal these poignant pains; the observer in you will see them pass through you without entrapping you.

Without knowing the eternal nature of the soul and your ability to pass feelings through, grief may very well end up entrapping you. Your inability or unwillingness to let the feelings go will trap them in your mind and body and you will endure unending torture of painful loss as they cycle through your mind and body again and again. This hell is not required, nor is it wanted by the one who has passed.

When you remain mindfully conscious of Spirit through a loss, it purifies the mind. The death of someone close to you is a stern reminder that you are a “renter” in this body, not a “buyer;” that one day death will come to claim you as well, and this clarity can lead to wisdom. When a death makes you go deeper to find comfort or answers, then you also grow spiritually. The choice of how you deal with death of the body is up to you; you may always choose the higher calling and be blessed.

When, not if, you have loss in your life remember to be conscious in this process and let it draw you closer to Divine Consciousness, fulfilling the great truth spoken by the great Galilean Master, blessed are they that mourn.

Be Happy—and Enjoy the Sweets


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Picture: my mom when young; still have the shoes she is wearing.

Mom had wanted me to say a few words here for her service, but to keep this time of remembering her positive, light—and short! She certainly would not want anyone to go be put to any trouble, and if anything were done at all, then there should be something sweet and delicious to be enjoyed by the end.

I always marveled at obituaries seen in the newspapers, how a life could be summed up in a paragraph or two. And yet, when it comes to capturing my mother’s life, it seems difficult to do. She traveled all over this world with my father, enjoyed the Seahawks, Mariners and Huskies. She read, enjoyed mysteries and detective stories, and doing crafts like sewing all of those little sparkly things onto yearly calendars given out to family members.

She chose absurd gifts like a cat-clock whose tail wagged and eyes swiveled in time with the seconds, a ship made of little shells purchased in some port-of-call, or the wooden drum with some skin stretched over the top and a stick to beat it with, that I am sure seemed like a good idea at the time to buy for her son when she was in Africa.

Family was central for my mom, something that was more felt than spoken; but she spoke of it more with age and time. She loved family gatherings: food, time to see children, grandchildren and great-grandchildren. She worried over their difficulties in life and loved to see them happy. She always just wanted to see everyone be happy; that was supreme.

Her faith and church also grew with time. Her bible study group that she did not like at first, “they want me to talk about what this bible verse means to me, I just wanted to study the bible,” that changed to, “bible study is really interesting, it’s kind of like therapy!”

In fact learning new things was something that seemed to pick up speed as she got older. She operated her I-pad and kindle and smart phone. She was thrilled when she discovered she could receive a text I sent to her.

It really is a ridiculous notion that you could ever sum up a lifetime in words, there is more content than container. However, I did want to say a few words to acknowledge that (in how she described herself) this simple and unassuming woman had great significance to at least the three sons whom she bore, and to next generations of family, her many friends, and all those whose lives this gentle, heartfelt woman touched.

Now, I only hope this has been short and positive enough to suit her! And, for goodness sakes, she certainly would not want anyone to be sad or shed any tears on her account. Just be happy–and enjoy the sweets.

My Mom’s Passing Announcement

My mom’s passing:

I thought you would like to know that my mother left the body today about 11 a.m, January 15, 2014.

Last night we arrived in Sunnyside to see my mother who had broken her hip a week ago. After a successful operation she was sent to a rehab unit where we saw her. We spent some lovely time with her, but her pallor was very pale, she was weak and dozed off and on.

She held my hand as she slept, her life-force extremely faint. The thought came to me that she would need to choose life soon if she was to continue on. Both Carla and I spent some time seeing her filled with beautiful golden light, both of us felt a powerful vibration.

While we were there she said that she was afraid to be alone. I told her we were there, and that she was never alone; God and Jesus were always with her.

This morning she was taken to the hospital as she was non-responsive. She had internal bleeding and needed four pints of blood; she also had sepsis (due to a fast growing bacteria in the blood and can be common after an operation). The doctors were just starting her on blood transfusion and anti-bacteria when she left the body. Thus her life in the body ended after 85 years.

I have a mixture of love, sadness, and gratitude; and internal confirmation that she had a smooth transition. Just this last Thanksgiving she was wondering out loud why she was still living; a prelude to the withdrawal of life-force from her physical body.

At the hospital Carla and I spent time with my mother’s recently vacated body. As I put my hand on the top of her head I felt heat flowing; Carla held her hand. The chant spontaneously sang through me, “My Lord I adore Thee, lay my life before Thee, how I love Thee.” Singing softly, at first the chant was stalled by emotion surging up, my voice grew stronger; feeling her listening spirit close by. Peace and the all-powerful spiritual Presence gradually filled the room. It was a time of Grace and sure guidance into her new life. With inner vision Carla saw my father coming to meet my mom; together, happy; a peaceful transition into a new life, a lighter and easier life.

My love and gratitude goes out to my mom, indebted to her for giving birth to this body; deeply appreciative for all the love and support she has shown me down through the years. Mothers, of course, have a special relationship with us, having known us in the womb, longer than any other person.

We have now had the celebration of life service for my mom. It was well attended and there were so many positive, loving and sincere expressions for what she meant to so many people. Her church had wonderful decorations, cake and ice cream for afterward. There were tears, and laughter, stories and easy conversation; all things my mom would have loved.

And as I write this, my love goes out to you my dear friend; and if you have the opportunity, do something nice for your mother, and all who are mothers, who are but expressions of the universal Divine Mother.

Pronams and deepest blessings,

David

 

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Master & Richard Wright have the darshan of Kara Patri

[Master is on my mind: I thought you would find this an interesting description of Richard Wright, when he  and Master had the darshan of the saint Kara Patri at the Kumbha Mela. Master gave a description of this meeting in the Autobiography of a Yogi, but of course Richard had his own observations and it is plain that both Master and Richard were very impressed with this yogi. Master had gone to the Kumbha Mela in hopes of seeing Babaji, but the great master chose not to reveal himself during his visit to the Mela. However, Master did meet with some of India’s great saints in 1936, including Anandamayi Ma, Mahatma Gandhi, Swami Keshabananda, and many more. Although the focus of the writing is not specifically on Master, it does give some sense of the journey in India Richard was on with Master.]

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Picture: Yoganandaji at the Kumbha Mela in Allahabad

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Kara Patri
By Richard Wright
Inner Culture, November 1936

I quote the following from my notes of Jan. 27, 1936:

The scene is laid near Allahabad at the junction of the Ganges and Jumna Rivers, during the Kumbha Mela, the great gathering of Sadhus and Seekers, held every three and six years. We next drove down the river bed (Ganges) to the undernourished sacred river. Alighting and treading some distance through the thickening smoke and treacherous sands, we approached a cluster of tiny, very modest straw huts. Suddenly, we drew up before one of these insignificant, temporary huts with its pigmy doorless entrance, the shelter of a young, wandering Sadhu, or mendicant, noted for his exceptional intelligence and capacities, named Kara Patri. There he sat, cross-legged in a pile of straw, his only covering, and incidentally his only possession, being an ochre cloth draped over his shoulders; and this was only temporary, for soon warm days would come.

Truly a divine face smiled at us as we crawled into the hut on all fours and pronamed at the feet of this enlightened Soul, while the kerosene lantern at the entrance flickered weird, dancing shadows on the thatched walls. His face, especially his eyes and teeth, beamed and glistened with the blessing of simplicity and freedom, “doing everything with the searchlight on God.”

Although I was puzzled by the Hindi, his expressions were very revealing, as he was full of enthusiasm, fire, introspection, love, happiness, divine glory, freedom, and all the other divine qualities. No one could be mistaken as to his greatness. Imagine the happy life of one unattached to a material life, free of most clothing, wearing only one cloth; free of food craving, never begging; never touching cooked food except on alternate days; no begging bowl; eats only one meal a day generally; free of all money entanglements, never handling money; never storing things away, always trusting in God; free of transportation difficulties, never riding in vehicles, but always walking on the banks of the River Ganges, or others; never remaining in one place longer than one week in order to avoid becoming attached to anything.

Such a modest Soul! free of worldly entanglements and struggles, but unusually learned, having read all the religious Scriptures, the Vedas (very lengthy), Vedanta, and so forth, and with an M. A. degree in four subjects, with the title of “Shastri” (master of Sanskrit) from the BenaresUniversity.

A grand feeling pervaded throughout as we sat at this Saint’s feet and listened to his noble expositions. It all seemed to be an answer to my desire to see the real, the ancient India, for he is the true representative of this land of Spiritual Kings. We bade pronam and reluctantly departed from this embodiment of God and Man, grateful for his hospitality and spirit.

And so, if I have not been too vague, you will see that there is something to this world of ours after all. Such men as I have just described come on earth to elevate those of us who are caught in the muck and mire of these passing fancies and pleasures.

Honored Guest

Turban PY 2 recduced [This is a continuation of excerpts from Kamala’s (a name Master gave her meaning lotus) book The Flawless Mirror. These personal memoirs give an intimate view of Paramhansa Yogananda, or as she simply refers to him as Swami. Several of you commented on the last writing, which I always love to hear from you regarding these writings. So, in continuation of honoring Master’s birthday here is more from Kamala.]

It was in midsummer when there was a knock at our door and Swami, smiling, was there. He had come to California for his vacation, arriving at Manhattan Beach in July (1927). We felt blessed that he was with us. Mother and I were aware of his great spiritual stature, yet his simplicity of manner allowed our very special respect for him to blend naturally with the friendship he gave us. He brought an atmosphere of joyousness.

During his visit, Mother and I motored with him to Santa Barbara and stayed at our home there. The town had a very leisurely feeling at the time; no one ever seemed in a hurry, which gave a sense of tranquility that we liked. The days were lovely and warm. Swami swam at the beach. We went on some of the nearby scenic drives, which were very beautiful and were settings for spiritual inspiration.

One afternoon while driving, my Guru went into a state of Samadhi. He was outwardly still, inwardly absorbed in God—his consciousness completely interiorized. I was aware of this and when the car arrived at the house, and Mother and chauffeur went indoors, I hesitated, not knowing if he wished anyone to remain, or to be alone. So I stayed for a little while, very quiet, and then went inside. He came in later. I realized, some time after, that when he entered into a state of deep communion, a disciple was privileged to remain and meditate with him, and receive the blessing of being near.

He brought with him a harmonium—an Indian instrument with organ tones and a piano-like keyboard. He used it to accompany his chanting at our evening meditations.

Once we drove to Pismo Beach, many miles up the coast, and had dinner there. We always found Swami dear to be with, and his sense of humor was a kind that seemed to bubble over and everyone enjoyed things twice as much.

On our return drive to Manhattan Beach he told me that he had seen many of his past lives and from them he had learned that the soul would accept nothing for long that was not perfection. He said: No human being can give the joy that God can give; go to God always; give Him your life.”

During these summer days friends occasionally stopped by and met Swami. In all environments he was gracious and quiet in manner. Through this quietness he imparted a warmth and sweetness felt by all.

I asked Swami what I could do in addition to the Yogoda lessons which I followed. He told me, “Meditate longer, with greater intensity, for otherwise the mind only nibbles and no realization will come.”

He suggested that I go on a specific type of diet for a time and I did, benefitting tremendously in health and energy. He also penciled this list:

  1. Meditation 2. Dignity 3. Perfect Cooperation 4. Diet 5. Giving no cause of criticism 6. “Make yourself better and serve to please.” 7. Seclusion is the price of spiritual greatness.

Shortly afterward Swami left with his driver for Pismo Beach to meditate. The now-thriving little sea town was then mostly rolling sand dunes. He remained there a few days. When he returned, the chauffeur said to Mother in a perplexed tone: “I don’t know what he was doing, but he just sat out there among the sand dunes, facing the ocean, and stayed there every day, all day long.”

Swami returned after these days in God-communion with the effulgence of that time upon him, and as he came into the room I remained quiet, sensing his inner rapture. He spoke words to God, of me, precious and sacred; then said solemnly, “Only speak to me of God.” In that vibrant bliss in which he had remained in unbroken communion, it would have been painful and restricting to turn his gaze from his absorption in the Infinite to any other topic.

One facet of his true saintliness lay in his willingness and ability to meet the noisy world of constant public life and cope with every duty and yet stay permanently in the sanctuary of inner beatitude. Here, now, he could roam in the Cosmic Vastness without even a part of his mind having to turn to the multitudinous affairs of daily life. As Jesus went to the mountain top to pray, my Guru had gone by the ocean to commune with the Heavenly Father.

A few days later Swami left California. He bade us goodbye and said he would keep us in his prayers. His fall itinerary included Minneapolis, St. Paul, and Philadelphia.

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