Awake at 1 a.m., worries about money come unbidden to mind, “How am I going to pay my bills? How can I ever go on vacation? My old car needs to be replaced, how can I ever do that? My business is stalled, money is going out the window, I am more and more in debt!”
Awake at 7 a.m. “Oh, another day. I am so lonely. What is wrong with me that I do not have someone special in my life? I want someone to especially love, and who will love me! I just want to roll over and go back to sleep; there I may feel some respite from this loneliness.”
Just two examples of how we worry and cry bucket loads of tears about our unfilled desires. Is it so inconceivable that you would cry over not knowing God? That you would remain awake, thinking that days, years are going by and you do not know God, or deeply love Him? That you would wake in the night, wondering how you will pay for the air that you breathe?
What if you yearned for God at least as much as you desire things in this world? What if you worried if you will know God as your complete lover as much as you yearn to be loved by that someone special in your life?
At one point in my life I started to connect the idea that all my desires for things and satisfaction found in this world was really my desire for God. Sri Yukteswarji quoted the Vedas, saying that God is the fulfillment of all your heart’s desires. Just think, everything you desire, everything you worry about, everything that causes you stress in this world, it is all satisfied through your connection with the Divine Presence.
Begin today by transferring your allegiance, your focus of attention, and your love, to God and not the world. You will still live in the world, therefore you must give it its due. However, inwardly, deeply, you look to God as your all and all, in all. Discover that amazingly, simply, your heart’s desire and fulfillment is, and always has been, right within you.